Sunday, July 31, 2005
Jesus, You Are My Best Friend :)Have you heard of the one called saviour?
Have you heard of his perfect love?
Have you heard of the one in Heaven?
Have you heard how he gave his son?
Well I have found this love and I believe in the son show me your way
I believe in the one called saviour
I believe his the risen oneI believe that i'll live forever
I believe that the king will come
Because I have found this love and
I believe in the son show me your way
Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that
YAY! I'll update another time :\ Gotta run!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating.
I asked Rachael to reflect about what she wants & all but I myself didn't do it. I know what I really want now is.. one, true friends. Bestaye got that phrase into me. I just thought about which one of my friends really the one. & I realised not all, not almost all, I use the word hardly. Sigh two,
& I know all of these ain't not easy :\ It has never been, has it?
RAH!!
WHY!? Go away lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh )':
You're my sweetest dream come true.
& now youre gone.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
FATHER RICHARD IS LEAVING! ):TIME SLOT!
31 July (Sun) 7am - Fr Richards
31 July (Sun) 8.30am - Fr Richards
31 July (Sun) 10am - Fr Richards
31 July (Sun) 6pm - Fr Richards
I NEED TO ATTEND ANY ONE OF THEM :)
These thoughts have gathered up the memories unfold
I HATE TODAY. TODAY SUCK! Ugh, morning got caught by miss chia for eating chocolates while going for bio class. I bet she ate them on her own already. Damn, what a great start for a day, hur? In bio, cherry lim never fails to pick on me lah. Then it was maths. Rachel showed me uh monfont's yrbook & it's primary school. Ugh & mrs ong saw it so she confiscated it lah. Damn she wrote it in my pink book & I'm so dead sigh. Ok then what else.. Oh after that recess was bio again. cherry lim never fails to pick on me, still. Whao, she simply loves calling me please. Out of nowhere, GLYNIS! & her face is just as black as charoal.
Oh I heard about the lesbian & couple thing in school. Qiaos was wondering if anyone of us is in this thing. Haha, I don't mind being in this thing if theyre just gonna questioned us :) Hahah, how lame lah. Qiaos was like saying, if Mrs Tan ask her about lesbianism, she's gonna go like, what's wrong about being a lesbian?! We support lesbianism rights! Lmao :) Though it's wrong to be one, I think it's cool hah.
After school went lunch with Mich & Qiaos again. Hahah, saw yet, sok, jiaen, cw & akiko? Hahha she's damn cute lah :)
OH & I FORGOT TO MENTION, I DRANK MARTEL WITH SPRITE TODAY! :D:D:D:D THERE'S MORE TMR, YAY!
If I could be your first real heartache,
I would do it over again.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Now when we've come face to face, the memories came rushing back to me
I've so much to blog about. Ok school was just as hectic as I thought. Life couldn't have been any better. How I wish I don't have to take the cts ugh. Maths test was alright, haha. It was better than I thought though (= Oh bestaye wasn't in school today ): I was alone during maths & english! :\ but ohwell, just hope that she's better now. After school, Qiaos, Mich & I went studying at RM. Lydia & her gang came afterwards, & she joined us to study & all.
There was this auntie came to sell tissues. So I bought it from her. I gave her one buckeroos & told her to keep the change. I doubt she's lying & I can see that she really needs monehh.
Oh & suddenly there was this little boy with his mom came & talk to me like, "uh jie jie, ni ke yi bang wo xie zhe ge ma?"(can you help me write this?) So I was like thinking I supposed it's a survey or something but it turned out to be some great eastern thing? & I forgot to mention, the boy was badly bruised. Got blue blacks & bleeding lips? Yeah damn poor thing lah. His mom got burnt before, as in got the scars & all. Eeks :\ So filled up the whole thing for him & he left.
So studying continues till around 4+? Yeah & LYDIA HOE wants to run away with my mp3 when she have already decided to leave without her dearest maths textbook left alone in school. She took damn long to decide if she wants to go back to take. She was like, aye bye ah WITH THE MP3 ON HER HANDS. Damn silly lah she. & we all left around 5+? Cabbed home.
I feel like using comment box instead of tagboard. Ugh I don't know!!
Sometimes when I think of you, I feel like just a fool.
I don't know why..
Monday, July 25, 2005
I'm sick & tired of everything, now it's time to show a little attitude.
I typed a whole chuck of shiat & now it disappeared. !#!#!# I realised I've been showing a lot of attitude this few days. I don't know why either. I supposed it was the stress I'm feeling & all. Seriously, I don't feel good. Well, my attitude is a little worse to some people. You know I really dont know who is she now. Like a total stranger to me.I seriously can't stand the way she act cute in front of bungs, flirt around with them (eeks), keep telling them shiat over & over again. It's totally sick lah ok. She must go around telling the whole world she got something we don't have from bungs. -rolls eyes. Who the hell is she? Omg, I really don't know her. Sigh well life sucks.
School has been rather a disaster. I'm feeling so stressed up over stupids things, stupid people. Sometimes I rather keep things to myself than to tell it to someone. Ugh whatever I don't know what am I thinking. School, life that sucks, people around & crazy thing called _ _ _ _. I don't know.
School's stressing me up a lot. CT is just a week away, in fact I feel as though it's waving to me now ): I haven't really get my mood right & study yet. I'm still thinking of what I wanna do AFTER CT ends. If I don't do well for this CT, buddy's gonna ignore me & daddy's not gonna give me both the monehh & the hotel room on my birthday for my well-planned bday bash! ): RAH! & art's storyboard. Date due on friday. Miss Teh is gonna kill me if I do not have it done. RAH! & tmr's maths test ): I don't even know what the hell is the topic about! I did pay attention ok, I REALLY DID. But I don't know what she talking about! Ok I'll study later. Yeah I will, I have to! RAH!
What's going on in my life now? I ought to be happy yknow. I don't know lah, I don't wanna talk about it.
Friends come & go. She came & left me. I'm glad, really. But one thing, she changed a lot.(different person from the top aye) She became someone I don't know. Ok well I really don't know her. She wasn't the her I used to know. She hold grudges so bad now. Sigh I don't know. I don't wanna bother :\
_ _ _ _.
Everytime I try, you let go. So the next time I won't try, so you won't have to let go. Be that way ok.
Two words for you; SHUT UP.
You ought to know when to.
But sadly you do not.
Sigh ):This has gone on so long
I realize that I need
Something good to rely on
Something for me
Sunday, July 24, 2005
The back aches are killing me. RAH!I declare that PHS is waaaaaaayyyyyyyyy big! It's four times of sjc. Now I do not agree that
I feel like changing url. :\
Dirty Sunshine by Lillix is beautiful!
You were there at my darkest moment, thank you (:
Friday, July 22, 2005
According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You?
& you know I'm tired of all there. I'm tired of writing songs about you. I'm tried of stupid things, stupid people. Don't say you'll understand how I feel 'cos I know you won't. You will never get what I mean, I rather keep everything inside of me than tell it to the whole world. I've got no one else to turn to but buddy's always there. Where are you when I needed you? When you need me, where was I? I don't know why everything's so superfical. I'm sorry if I'm the only one imperfect thing in your life. I can't be what you ask me to. I've got my own life to lead. I hate everything now. I've got so much left unspoken. I wish that I could see who's to blame for all these.
Life has been great except for being depressed. Yesterday's filming was even better. But what mom did made the day go grey. Flimed & all, went home around 10. (= I like the video though! I'm home early today 'cos.. I don't know. I just feel like. Gonna do some studying later & uh dvd-ing :D I need nice songs now. Perfect 10 sucks big time, ohmy.
Liang Yao Jun is gonna die. She promised me a bag of chocos & breezer today & guess what? She didn't come. -rolls eyes.
Why can't you just butt out?
Saturday, July 16, 2005
I like this :)
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
Well, I'm home all day! Ting Shan's my another sweet love. She's damn nice & pretty! Heh <3>
I've asked Auntie Val about the trip to the orphanage with the class! She said she would tell me the date & time & I'll arrange it with Miss Sek. I've tols Miss Sek about it too & she approved! She told me it's good to organise such events. Heh at least I did something helpful! I'm so glad lah. Oh I've also ask Tricia about it & she's going with the flow! YAY! Sassy & Qiaos coming too (= I didn't expect them to agree. I thought they would think it's a very _______ thing to do. :\ Hah but I'm wrong. YAY!
I've got a few things in plan! 23 July going to PHS funfair. WHERE'S JAMIE? WILL BE PERFORMING & AMD IS IN IT! Heard that Carol is going too! & of course Lyd will be there! :) Uh huh, 30 July going to Malaysia to visit Grandpa & celebrate his 80th birthday. Something I dread to go but I have to. I'm only going because it's the shopping part that attracted me. :\ Damn! My cousin don't have to go 'cos she's going Denmark with her friends. Ugh what the hell. =\ 31 July going for St Anne's funfair with Mich & Qiaos! Like how great! :)
I'm looking forward to all!
I needa go Malaysia & get that Body Glove bag! :)
MRS SASSY CHOU } I've done something for you (: Show you on monday ok! <3>
MRS CHANEL CHEN } I'm doing yours in the process (: <3
Please don't take my sunshine away :*
Till Then! <3
Thursday, July 14, 2005
NO I DON'T CRY ON THE OUTSIDE ANYMORE.
I'm at school now (: WHEE! I shall start recalling what happened last week aye.
ok last sunday went to the orphanage with cousins & family. I SAW WEI LING AGAIN! She's so cute lah (: She's good at art & I think it's good. Some little boy under isolation 'cos he got chicken pox! Damn poor thing ): So uh I sat around talked to WEI LING, asked her to draw for me & all. But sadly didn't manage to lah 'cos uh no time. They gotta go for lunch. Their library is damn dirty! It's like just cement(?) & no floor tiles or whatsoever. Damn poor thing lah. I enjoyed myself though!
It just reminds me how fortunate I am (:
Oh & I wanna go there again! (: Sassy, Qiaos is coming along the next trip, I guess.
ok I can't remember the rest now.
I WANNA GET THAT DEDICATIONS PAGE DONE! :)
Till Then! <3
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Fell in love for half an hour.I've got a lot to blog about but currently I got no time ugh! I shall just talk about today first. (=
Alrighty, school was perfectly fine till recess. I don't know when this chaos is gonna end but I don't wish tob other anymore 'cos I know this was all just a misunderstanding. I shall just leave everything to her, since she don't wanna let me or even us, explain to her. & well I didn't let that affect the day. Ok it did, just a little. I was fine after bio. (= Alright after school went to the Art Museum again. Did some work & all. I like one of the art pieces! It's so true! The boy was trying to say that, no matter what happens in life, people always put on a happy mask. Fake fronts are lifeless & dead. & I agree! We had lovely ice-creams there! :D Went back to school around 5 plus. After that, went to compass with bestaye & sassy. IT LIGHTEN UP MY HEART SO MUCH AFTER TALKING TO THEM PLEASE! At least I know more about myself now! But I'm worried about something now. POINTS TO NICK & LOOKS AT SASSY & BESTAYE & guess what. I SAW BUDDY! :D & she's so orangey! Heh I'm happy 'cos I saw her & I poured everything out to bestaye & sassy. LIKE YAY! :D
No, don't you push me away again.
No, I don't wanna fall into your fantasy.
No, I do
No, I will
But..
Nothing else matters like you (:
you're so stucked in my heart.
Saturday, July 09, 2005
I guess this is the worst feeling ever.When your heart hurts so bad, your tears are already burning your eyes, but you gotta stay strong. show her that you already got over her but when deep within you, she lies beneath. You'll still find her there. She's still somewhere in your heart, a fact you cant change. You tried to let go, thinking it isn't as tough as you think but for so long, you didn't manage to do it afterall.
Uh huh (: I had so much fun last night, though the tears burnt my eyes a little. Heh, and much laughter got the night so bright, so perfect. I love the night sky a lot. I saw so many stars! Big & bright. Heh & I wanna do it again! Sadly, girlfriend did not stay though :( Ohwell, we got all the time in the world, right girlfriend? <3>
POP was great (= Smart & perfect, heh. Walked around, snapped a lot of photos. Sat around till around 9, went home. Talked to carol on the way home though! (= Showered, went online, talked to buddy! :D Again, some senses got into my head & I'm happy again! Hahah, I wanna stay like this forever ;) I wanna be like the past. I laugh & smile at almost everything :\ & I'm glad buddy didn't give up on me! How long its gonna take, how pain I gotta feel, I will still pull it through. I'll take the memories away no matter how shattered I was at that time. I'm still gonna love you, as a friend.
Confessions! :)
Natasha } We promised to be darlings for another 10, 20 years down the road. You're gonna attend my graduation & I'm gonna attend yours! We might even attend each other's wedding! :D I love you plenty, sweets <3 -hugs!
Girlfriend } I love heart <3 my girlfriend a lot! :D Let me know when she bullies you, I'll bully her twice as bad as she bullies you. Don't give her face. HMPH, then we don't friend her. Hahah. Your words left me on cloud 9 (= & I'll never forget them. We'll go catch stars together ok! :) -hugs! I love you always, gf! <3
Buddy } Same thing to you, you'll always be there -points to heart, this will never change. I will still remember you when I'm holding on to his hands. & when we both walk down the asile in the church, you ought to be there (= In my darkness moment, you gave me hope. -hugs! I love you heaps <3 I MISS YOU A LOT LAH HOR.
Caroline & Amanda } Thanks for everything, love. You make life so beautiful lah (= We gotta catch up soon ok! Out out out together! :D I've got so much to say please!! See yall soon! -hugs tight! Love you both! <3
The OhMyGodsXz } Thanks for being there all the time. Thanks so much for the fun we had. More to come yes? & we're gonna spend a lot of time together ok! & remember, you're not alone :D you got ohmygod no.1(the great!) (: Love you both truckloads! -hugs!
CLIQUE } I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL BECOME WITHOUT YALL! Little things, both good & bad we went through, brought us a little closer, step by step. & makes me love yall more & more each day! (: Thanks for everything, babes. We'll never drift apart (= -hugs all tight! Love yall sexayes <3
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
i know i made alvina happy today (= right alvina?but i made myself very unhappy ): maybe not myself, it's her. we finally know who's the one who got me into that. & i cant believe that she's the one. clique wants me to talk to her & i will ! uh huh. another thang is, cried & poured my heart out with qiaos today (= lovely but i havent finish what i wanna say. :\ qiaos wanna hurry home to talk to her SILLY. hahahhaha! nvm michelle! we're gonna have ours soon right? :D:D:D:D:D oh anyway, thanks for your concern yes? love! <3
what are you trying to imply? LOOKS AT RON hitting the bush, go the round-a-bout? forget it babe, I already know what you mean (= Thanks anyway.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
i hate you.
it's you fucking dicko!
Monday, July 04, 2005
ok i pretended like i never knew you, i never seen you anywhere before. whatever that took place between us, im leaving it all behind. all those pain, tears & ohjoy we had, everything including you. you're just another fucker who's here to screw up my life. c'mon lah do something more matured, act your age. my life is screwed enough, thankyou. it's already a fucking screwed life. you're not that kinda guy that i know anymore yknow. yes i WAS affected by what you said but now i can hardly bother about you. why waste my time on some fucking dick? don't waste my precious time lah ok. you ought to live your own life & leave mine alone. much appreciated yes? you can go & fuck some bitches on the street i don't care. you can go flirt with all kinds of shaggy aunties for all i care. i dont give a fucking damn you fucktard. & know what, I'm throwing YOU outta the window to some other cheapos. you're so sick & dirty. i pity your girlfriend : whatever, i've got better things to do than to waste my time on you, fucking dicko!know what? I'm all over you lah cheapo!
right explicit (=
i'm done with the scoldings. Totally hates him. eeeeeeyer, slaps. I hope he choke on every word he says. & every girl he's with now, ditches him & leave him in a bad state. HMPH that's the curse for you, ohsohot guy.
buddy, you're the best that i ever had (=
you're there when my heart almost fell out.
so you brought the heart back to where it's supposed to be.
save & sound, so peaceful.
it no longer temble, it's like so warm & red, my heart.
you're my heart's delight.
my numbo one! x))))))
after so many friends ive seen, drifted apart & all, you're the only one that made my heart feel so good though plenty happened & of course we did drifted apart :
my heart is so safe in your hands! :)
you were there ALL the time.
you never fail to make me smile (=
I won't forget, you offered to drop by my place with a little surprise just to make sure I'm good, I'm doing fine, not doing anything silly.
I love you a lot, y'know.
We promised, hooked & stamped.
We're never gonna leave each other
you got me & i've got you.
remember that! :)
Sunday, July 03, 2005
I'm sorry I didn't want it to happen either. Sorry. I really don't know what's going on. I'm a fucking slut to you now. Ugh, I don't know LAHHHHHHHHH =\
GLYNIS DONT BOTHER SO MUCH CAN ANOT. HAIYO. GO HOME & SLEEP LAH BITCH. NO TIME TO WASTE LEH. TIME IS PRECIOUS. GO HOME & SLEEP. WHY GET AFFECTED? YOU DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG. ok whatever i'm being so retarded again.
WU DING.
It's making me feel sad all over again ):
I can't deny, boy I miss you.
Tomorrow is another day.
Come come, let's play pretend!
ok it doesn't feel good.
I need to talk to someone right NOW.
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Excuse me, please.I'm too bored :\
| Your Love Style is Agape |
 You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
/
Part Romantic Kisser |
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/
| You Are A Realistic Romantic |
You are more romantic than 70% of the population.  It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line! |
/
Your #1 Love Type: ESFJ |
| The Caregiver In love, you are very giving. You give your sweetie a lot of special attention.For you, sex should be warm and intimate... a way to give and share love. Overall, you are upbeat, kind, and affectionate.However, you tend to also be a bit needy and manipulative at times. Best matches: ISFP or INFP |
Your #2 Love Type: ENFJ |
| The Giver In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail.For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring. Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational.However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner. Best matches: INFP or ISFP |
Your #3 Love Type: ESFP |
| The Performer In love, you relish every moment and tend to get caught up in passion.For you, sex is how you get in touch with all your senses. Overall, you are creative, popular, and flexible.However, you tend to dislike criticism and avoid any conflict. Best matches: ISTJ or ISFJ |
Your #4 Love Type: ESTJ |
| The Guardian In love, you are energetic, dependable, and willing to give it your all.For you, sex is fun and physical - something you've cultivated a talent for. Overall, you are cheerful, stable, and committed.However, you tend to also be impatient, controlling, and (inadvertantly) insensitive. Best matches: ISTP and INTP |
Your #5 Love Type: ENFP |
| The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond.For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner.However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ |
/
RAH! ):
I don't know what's going on.
ok pictures up! :)
I like the last one (= It's so togetherness. Hah.
The opera last night was good. Better than I expected it to be. Their skills are like whao. I took pictures with one of the actresses! She's the one who the male lead. It's with my uncle. Hahah, I wanna take with the lead actress but sadly, my uncle keep pushing me to that male lead. :\ Ohwell, better than nothing (: & the seat I sat was err, $750 ? Hurr, rightt. I wanna go again! It's quite fun lah. Hee :D
It's not very true, but ohwells (=
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
I'm off to do Mich's template first, then I'll update later on (:
Friday, July 01, 2005
So many reasons what I wanna spend forever with you
I regretted what I did. But it couldn't be undone, sigh. If I knew this was gonna happened, I wouldn't let it happen. A bunch of friends becoming a group of unknown foes.
/
So today is the be yourself day. Morning had some retarded SS lessons. I swear Miss Yeo hates me. She picks on me ok. It's not like the others who are also in lit class that didn't do lit homework did her SS work ok. She won't pick on bungs. Ok whatever. Had chinese after that. Did compo. I was talking rubbish in the compo LAH :\ It's not even proper chinese. But it's damn hilarious. Hahaha, good thing she didn't read my to the class. I'm gonna make her laugh while marking my work. Hahah, maybe not. Disappointed in fact(reminds me of Miss Yeo, she keep saying DISAPPOINTING). Ok lessons go on. Had art but Miss Teh wasn't here. She gave us chocolatey chocolate! :D:D:D Heh, did work. Drew Chanel anyhow. Hahaha, I wasn't in the mood to draw actually. Ok so had chem in IT Resource after that. Mr Teoh is retarded. He can talk on the phone while teaching. I don't know what is he trying to imply. Hahha, whatever la. Hr got cheated by Qiaos's notes! Hahah, I was busying writing something, & he wanted to see mine so I showed him Qiaos one. Just because he had to sign my pinkbook =x Hahaha he ask me what's the other name for Group IIV element. I was like looking at Jaclyn & she pointed to the board. Hahah, it's halogen! I guess? Haahaha. Something happened after school & I don't wanna mention it here. Too angry to mention. & sorry bitch, I feel like I'm hating you, again. Had lunch, went home (:
/
Going for opera later
Something I do not look forward to.
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Stop acting like you really care.
You never really mean it afterall.
Why should I even bother about a fucking asshole like you?
/
I'm trying not to make myself hate you instead of loving you. & It's not working, fucktard.
